Down 30 kilos thanks to #ClimateChange


I’ve noticed a trend

I keep the weight off through good habits and changes to my diet to better my health issues

But for the last 3 summers, France has had intense heat waves and virtually no air conditioning

It has been so hot that I’ve been forced into fasting because the thought of anything but fruit and water would make me feel sick

Or I had no appetite at all and no awareness of the passage of time

The fact that it was too hot to drive safely and that anywhere you went was hot and offered vitally no escape from the heat…

The fact that almost weekly I was posting pictures on Instagram, showing the “in the shade” temperature, a few minutes in full sun temperatures vs what weather channels were reading for my area and me ranting at the bullshit numbers on the websites

The intense heat is a dangerous risk to my brain due to my cerebral vascular issues

So I’ve had to be smart and I love how something good came from the literal suffering I’ve been through during the last 3 summers

I’ve lost 30 kilos, roughly 65 lbs and kept it off

I can’t be as active as I want and due to family trauma in February, I have virtually no local friends to go out and have fun exercise with

But I’m getting stronger and I’m proud of the choices I’ve made with what I’ve been given

The innocent changes


I’m impressed with the changes I’ve made this year

Not just losing the weight but finding myself again and again as necessary

These photos are chronological in order from oldest at the top to most recent at the bottom

For the past few years I’ve added colors to my hair, they wash out over time and someone thought my hair was brown… It was actually sections of faded blue 🤣

I’ve always wanted to be wild like other people but I’d been told that I wasn’t allowed to cut or dye my hair

Being forced into the sweet, innocent and romantic role… Which is only a fraction of who I am

I’m almost 40 and I don’t think give a shit about the damages to my face, it’s part of my health problems and will always flare up… There is nothing I can do about it so others can get used to it and see past it or they can fuck off

I’m almost 40 and my true character is finally Allowed to be free and I won’t settle for less than I give, thus deserve… You can see my personality in my pictures

In my body language and expressions, by what I’m choosing to capture and share… Pictures speak so much if you are willing to learn the language

The colors are like markings on toxic frogs, with me it changes the romantic aspects and forces others to look closer

I’m almost 40 and I love that I don’t look or act my age… Some days I feel 60+ 🤣

I love that I’m finally showing who I am and making it obvious for others to see

And I love that doing this is a giant “fuck you” snub at the forced social rules of etiquette that do more harm than good

Yay continued weight loss


Over the last two years I’ve finally started to lose the “baby fat” from all of my pregnancies

I have 3 boys

My oldest is 21 and most can’t believe I’m old enough to even have kids, let alone 3 and that my youngest is 11

It’s still rather funny to be seen in town and have people think my oldest is my boyfriend

I like looking and feeling young

I’m 39 now but I don’t feeeel my age and I don’t want to… It’s just a number and basis of legality for whatever reason

I know keeping the weight off helps to reduce illness and the signs of aging and staying young inside helps as well

I’m currently down to 67.9 kilos

I was 92 kilos, which you can see in my older photos

The difference is impressive and I know I should be documenting it more…

It’s not easy to lose weight in general and now I need to find folks near me to help me start to tone up

More quality sex would be good too, sex is a lovely way to exercise 😉

I hope you enjoy my adventures through life

Feel free to motivate me to post more often, I’m lacking a muse

#sinfulsunday I am…


This week I’m posting right on the deadline due to a weekend of non stop PTSD panic attacks from what’s been going on in DC, idiots online and issues at home

All Sinful Sundays are about the image but this one is focused on “I am” and here are just of the few attributes that explain who I am

Heavily influenced by the bullshit going on in the world but especially in the states

Click on the lips to see who else is participating, learn what “I am” means to them

Sinful Sunday

And eventually I will write my own #metoo mixed with #whyididntreportit

I have a voice, not everyone has found theirs and some never will

For those of us with a voice… It is vitally important we use each word and scream and shout we have

Use your voice

Be heard

Lost weight and feeling more me!


Holy fuck….

It just sank in as to how much weight I’ve lost

I don’t get stones… Right now I’m 11.5 stones
Doesn’t sound like much

Ok kilos I kinda get cause I have visuals around me to understand… I’m 73.3 kilo

Pounds I know and grew up with… 161.599

I’ve lost 19 kilos… Sounds good right

Did the translation

Fuck!!!

I’ve lost 41.888 lbs

In a year and a half

This just hit me like a ton of bricks to my brain 😂

I really need to get my ass in gear and post new pictures, redo old pictures and show the progression

I’ve been so unmotivated to post on my blog but maybe that’s a good thing

My health is improving, even with the god awful heat wave through Europe… Which could literally cause me another stroke… So I’m not being a whiny cry baby about the heat

I’ve been hanging out with my “sister from another mister” for the last few months and we average 30 to 50 km (18.64 to 31.068 miles) per week when we walk all over town

I’ve been adding temporary color to my hair and even my natural color is slowly coming back to its former glory 😂

Overall I’m feeling more me… And honestly, I’ve had a higher sex drive on average… Wether I act on it or not

I’ve made new friends who I hope will help me start to tone up and work on strength training once it cools down

Or new friends I’m hoping will teach me to dance and get over my fears of humiliation… Weird right?

I can post nudes, flash my tits on stage or have sex with an audience watching but fuckin’hell I feel awkward dancing cause ermigawd!! I might be judged!!

The brain is weird

I’m getting there

I’m doing it!

I’m gaining back all that I lost of myself from over a decade of mental and emotional abuse and neglect

I’m getting “me” back

With my smarmy attitude and my no fucks given!!

Going places!

Not giving a fuck if I wear makeup to hide the damage to my skin

Being silly and obnoxious with friends! Hell I’m singing in public and not giving a shit!

And working on my tan with a lil help from a new friend

I’m doing it!

You can to… In whatever way you need, you can do the positive too

I’ll try to post more, this has motivated me but it’s very hot here so I’ll still be slow

But I want my life back and this blog is a part of that

Thanks for being a part of it too ❤

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