feeling a bit more like me … reply to fetlife question “What is sexy to you?”

it has been a while since i paid attention to the words on fetlife

the different types of games or questions

but tonight one caught my eye


(permission given to use his “name”)


What is sexy to you?

pretty random really. Random words even. What sparkles you?


confidence without arrogance
sensuality with passion
shy.. yes you can be shy and confident
good voice
good accent
mmmm good command of language, combining voice and accent with proper cadence
speaks more than one language
strong but gentle hands
loves to kiss
above all…romantic

now… if i can have that all rolled up into a military man…



i know that some will read this and may have hurt feelings

i know some will think they know who i am talking about

but how many will realize i am talking about myself and some of the best loves to have walked into my life

lovers as well as friends

those who know me well can pick themselves out of each word written

or combinations of words

and the ones who know me best will understand how all of the list is me twisted to show the more masculine or dominiant side of my personality

i am a complicated woman who needs my equal

a shieldmaid to fight beside the sword

i know it is hard to find all that i am in someone else

though i do have a bit of a twin halfway around the world

i enjoy seeing the similarities in those i love

and embracing the differences too

thank you superdooper00 for inspiring me tonight

my words are simple

yet it feels good to write again

day 24 #FebPhotoFest2015 ….UK/Belgium or Bust!

ok… needing some help

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i have two weddings to attend this year (so far)

one in march… one in april…
i really need to be there, the ladies are both americans far away from their roots but making new homes in europe
i simply must show my support and stand up as part of their families

getting to/from the uk is cheap and easy (under 50€)
but once there i have to get to the wedding, have a place to stay and food stuffs.. that adds up
worse is that my 17yr old wants to come too because he is seriously homesick for other anglophones

getting to belgium is easy… i drove there once and i can do it again!

provided my car is in good shape haha

ok plus i have to get up there since this beauty getting married needs her spinning wheel and i cant carry that on the train lol (bought at a flea market last year)

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so i am going through my pictures… normal and erotic
going to edit a few and make some books to sell and objects on my zazzle account

i will post links later when i have updated my accounts

in case someone would like to help out and buy stuff
donations also accepted if you want “something for nothing” aside from my gratitude and happiness and of course more pictures taken lol


day 23 #FebPhotoFest2015

crap night

bitching at everyone

i over stressed my body this weekend

enjoying life and people

spent too much energy

i tend to build up and erupt like a volcano

tired of stressing

i just want to be me

feeling lonely

wanting to go home

but home is a concept not a place

when i was young i left the midwest to go to the east coast

i would have moments of homesickness

crying because i wanted to go home

and now i am in france

crying because i want to go home

but i dont want to go back

not back to the past

not back to where i am from

i want to go “home”

where the heart is

where the warmth is

easiest way i can explain it is with song

one i often heard on the radio when i was little

“Our House”- Crosby Stills and Nash

it gives me a case of “the feels”

haha.. yeah… brain is melting from being out of control

society sucks

the way we have become sucks

the fact that we are selfish in our lives and forget the rest of the people around us


it takes a community to raise a child and we dont

which sucks

and i am out of beer… which half sucks cause i have more in the cold

and having to check on google to see if he is drying well

yeah that sucks less cause he didnt claw my face off when i gave him a shower


beer and pancakes

less self pitty, more self love

speaking of love

what started the treasure hunt idea was “x marks the spot”

well x turned out to look more like butterfly kisses

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TinMan was brave enough to let me apply my lipstick to his sensual mouth

only using a sort of “x” mark

but things have a way of smearing and changing

i like the idea of butterfly kisses

ok going back to bed



i think i will masturbate

good night


day 22 #FebPhotoFest2015 #SinfulSunday #SundayResolution

you ever have one of those days

where everyone around you (real life, web or what not) seem to open their mouth

and their words just seem so stupid you want to tell them

“oi, you, roll your brain back up and put it where it belongs cause right now it is hanging out your mouth”

yeah i have weird days like that

checking my email just now and title of Fetlife post

“I’m a christian and conservative in Dallas…”

i did this weird face at my screen

blinked a lot

pursed my lips and lifted one of my eyebrows

literally my first thought

“yah… ok.. so like, ya want fries with that spankin’?”

of course you have to imagine that in a midwestern twang

something off saturday night live parodies

or the mom from bobby’s world

of of course… fargo!

yeah hi, i’m from wisconsin




i did the whole good girl thing yesterday

i went ice skating

i was all giddy and bouncy and all kinds of brainless fluff

the kind of high you get when you havent done shit in 10 years and you just pulled it off!

so i get up this morning


so i made them

yessiree bobski!

and then i lost all my energy

all my pep

and all these plans that TinMan and i had been dreaming up

ya know… more scavenger hunt ideas

cause it was sunny today….

yeah fork that!

we went treasure hunting instead


i did try but damn just going up the stairs and my hips went “you stupid…get your ass back in bed”

ok ok slow going

so here is our treasure hunt for you lucky lot of misfits reading my madness

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it was rather zen like, laying in the sun as TinMan drew all over me

PicMonkey Collage treasure hunt 1-4

a closer view of 1… 2… 3… 4… !!!

PicMonkey Collage treasure hunt 5-7

and here we have the rest!

5… 6… and 7!!

at first he was going to write the words with the images

but hell! why forget to draw on my back too!


why not!

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TinMan had been talking about a comedian who was comparing their body to that of a map

with so many things happening over a life time

each trace of life, a mark on the map

thus a treasure map

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though honestly when he showed me this image!

i wasnt exactly sure if 7 was…

that my booty is the treasure or that my boobs are the treasure

i know he STARTED with the idea of my heart being the treasure, after seeing this i just dont know


and the reason i add this to my sunday resolution list

accepting that my body is not me

it is the case that holds me

i am making changes

bettering myself

but as number 3 says

“escape hatch”

i had kids and that adds marks to the map

not good or bad

just more adventures crossed

i accept this

ok off to watch movies and relax!

enjoy your sunday

ps… kilt bear rum is awesome! and i normally hate rum

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day 21 #FebPhotoFest2015

she says… in french… that i am cheating!

“tu triche!!”

and he says no i don’

and the other he tries to throw balls at me

see this is what i put up with when i have friends!

i love it

i was a good girl today!!


i went ice skating for 3 hour!!

currently have a cramp in my calf but worth it!


and gentleclown is POKING ME!

bugger is trying to make me freak as i try to get in under the midnight wire!

brats! the lot of them

it’s great

so cheating :p

old pick

i need more kink

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the first gag i ever made

requested by a webcaller

on a happy note!

i held her balls in my hand!!


they where tasty!!



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