My Birthday is this month….

and the sad thing is…

i dont have friends here

yes i have TinMan, my lovely ex who i still adore to bits and see as often as i can

i have my clown, a lover but i refuse to have a relationship

there are other men i could see but… they are just sex, it is empty, some friendship but still…so empty

i know people in france

good people

but so few i can really be myself with

which is why i say i dont have friends here

doesnt help that i have a house empty of creature comforts… like a couch and tv or sound system

how does one entertain INSIDE when it is like you are camping

how am i supposed to relax and be me when my envoironment doesnt yet reflect me

and i have no money to go out

so my birthday is this month

i will be 35

sucks being so far from people that love you and like you and know who you really are

hurts to be in a different world, or close enough to that feeling… to reach out to people but only have a sort of connection that never feels solid

worse that fair weather friends

*sigh*

so… that is my latest update

sorry if there are splling errors.. had to uninstall and reinstall google chrome and now it says everything i write is wrong… i think it is selected to french haha

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E.B. Starpointer

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