#sinfulsunday back in black

Hey!
I’m back!!!

Going to try posting again and do so on a semi regular basis

It’s been a year and much has happened since I moved into the new (rental) house last year

I’ve been able to move more and I’ve lost 14 kilo/ 31lbs and trying to keep this going!!

The title “back in black” is a bit of a joke in that the two pictures I’m posting for sinful Sunday are a lil silly

I posted an edited version on Facebook and Instagram to get people aware that I’m trying to be me and post more

But with all the “omg no nipple!!” Rules on Facebook, I added the black bar with “sorry….. NSFW”

It was a great tease hehe

Now to show the original picture
It’s been very hot in France and I spent a number of days in just a bathing suit… I figured I would take some pictures

Hope you have a great weekend

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stupid internet problems and dying computer

so life is happening

i’m still around but not posting or writing as my laptop is trying to die

my DSLR is dead

and my internet is trying to drive me nuts as we dont have dsl cables in the house i rent so i am forced with satelite and my kids can eat up my meter internet in 2 days!

granted i have free internet between midnight and 6am but fuck me i am too tired to stay up that late

been very busy, running around, doing stuff to try to better my life and making friends!

my birthday is at the end of the month

going out with my english friends tomorrow night to celebrate early

seems i have to dress up for halloween

so i’ll brave the cold and be a shoulder devil, my cosplay persona based on the web comic “the devils panties” by jennie breeden.. not satanic porn, sorry lol

will force the gals to get me pics i can post and share here as well as on facebook

seriously missing my sex life

i have none

stopped seeing TinMan and no sex friends

i’m a bit sexually starved and starting to need an outlet

i’ll try to write on paper and find a way to later transcribe but no way am i doing that on my phone.. too much effort

missing so much

but will try to get back into the swing of things

love you all

 

 

still around just hiding

having net issues and not able to be online often

mainly hanging out on facebook and driving people nutty

been reading a lot of books and rather boring

will try to take some pics or write some words to tease and tantalize

summer healing

so i have been battling an autoimmune disorder for nearly 25 years and i will be 37 this october… so my health has been something of a mess for FAR too long

one of the best ways to see how i am suffering is to look at my face

part of the reason i tend to look so young is because i have something similar to acne and have had this problem since i was 10!

it seems that i am allergic to myself and have random allergy breakouts that get worse depending on a number of factors

since moving out of that pretty shit hole i was in for 3 years.. my skin is healing

i moved out fully in july, so far i have only had one bad week of skin where i needed some make up to dampen down the look of my skin

because i get cysts in some of my pores, i literally have to perform surgery on my face to get the crap out or it will hurt worse and force me to go to the hospital to get them to do it under pain meds… the cysts tend to reach down and put pressure on nerves making it excruciating the bigger they get

but taking care of my skin constantly makes he have sores that run the risk of getting infected and leaving angry red spots or scars… it is a real bitch and can be a nightmare to hear or see people freak out if i am not wearing makeup

being out of the bad house with the mold has really helped my health

on top of that i started to use a mixture of coconut oil and red palm oil, rubbing it into my skin and sleeping with it on over night

i have no allergies to either but if you try it be warned of possible allergies and staining of towels or sheets haha

first time i tried i worried if the orange tint would wash off my face.. did not want to go around with people thinking i wanted to look like trump.. ick ick lol

but it comes off easily and heals the skin, making it softer, cutting down infection and bacteria that builds up on and in the skin… also helps to slowly make scars go away 😀

so this is me today, no makeup and this is the end of a week were it has been the worst my skin has looked in a about a month and a half 😀

this is me the other day with makeup

haha no eyebrows but who cares

i love that i am healing… finally

also love that i am starting to slim down, i’ve lost 7 kilos, roughly 15 lbs… im at 85 kilo or roughly 187lbs

haha no i dont plan on trying to get stick skinny, my bones and muscle tone would never support that but i would like to get closer to 56kilo or roughly 125 lbs where i was about 10 years ago

i love this picture as it clearly shows more of my lines are coming back as i slim down

less weight means easier to move, easier to find clothing that fits in this weird fashion world of france and elf like bodies… i’m more of a dwarf haha but no beard 😉

i want to be stronger and more healthy

 

 

unexpected house guest

so i was outside the other day and the dog i am watching was at my side in the garden

he is an american staff, lovely old thing but a bit dopey and easily excited by things that move

i happened to look down and saw a pretty little butterfly just sort of chilling

i scooped it up before the dog had time to notice or lick it to death in one friendly, well meaning but badly thought out action…

and the butterfly would not let go of me

seems i am safe and nice and all that good stuff

so i took a few pictures and loved the colors of the underside of the wings

if you look at the pattern just right it looks sort of like an native american in a feather headdress

for some reason the only time the butterfly moved off my hand was to sit on my breasts

i guess even the bugs like my tracts of land haha

eventually i got the butterfly off and safely onto something outside but it seemed cold and gave off this miserable vibe

so eventually, as the sun set and it was still in the same place i left it, i scooped it up again and took it into my room which was warmer

it seemed to liven up and was much more happy

opening and closing its wings

it stayed the night and seemed well rested, i was a bit worried about the damage to it’s wing but once i opened the window it flew off my hand and went into the trees