Turning 40 soon

So my birthday is fast approaching and the celestial heavens are sending out synchronicities

This is MY time

I shall start to speak out more and channeling my Greta like rage but focusing on social behavior

Already have a blog post that’s starting to write itself on rape culture denial and gaslighting denial

Should be fun 🤣🤣🤣

Down 30 kilos thanks to #ClimateChange

I’ve noticed a trend

I keep the weight off through good habits and changes to my diet to better my health issues

But for the last 3 summers, France has had intense heat waves and virtually no air conditioning

It has been so hot that I’ve been forced into fasting because the thought of anything but fruit and water would make me feel sick

Or I had no appetite at all and no awareness of the passage of time

The fact that it was too hot to drive safely and that anywhere you went was hot and offered vitally no escape from the heat…

The fact that almost weekly I was posting pictures on Instagram, showing the “in the shade” temperature, a few minutes in full sun temperatures vs what weather channels were reading for my area and me ranting at the bullshit numbers on the websites

The intense heat is a dangerous risk to my brain due to my cerebral vascular issues

So I’ve had to be smart and I love how something good came from the literal suffering I’ve been through during the last 3 summers

I’ve lost 30 kilos, roughly 65 lbs and kept it off

I can’t be as active as I want and due to family trauma in February, I have virtually no local friends to go out and have fun exercise with

But I’m getting stronger and I’m proud of the choices I’ve made with what I’ve been given

The innocent changes

I’m impressed with the changes I’ve made this year

Not just losing the weight but finding myself again and again as necessary

These photos are chronological in order from oldest at the top to most recent at the bottom

For the past few years I’ve added colors to my hair, they wash out over time and someone thought my hair was brown… It was actually sections of faded blue 🤣

I’ve always wanted to be wild like other people but I’d been told that I wasn’t allowed to cut or dye my hair

Being forced into the sweet, innocent and romantic role… Which is only a fraction of who I am

I’m almost 40 and I don’t think give a shit about the damages to my face, it’s part of my health problems and will always flare up… There is nothing I can do about it so others can get used to it and see past it or they can fuck off

I’m almost 40 and my true character is finally Allowed to be free and I won’t settle for less than I give, thus deserve… You can see my personality in my pictures

In my body language and expressions, by what I’m choosing to capture and share… Pictures speak so much if you are willing to learn the language

The colors are like markings on toxic frogs, with me it changes the romantic aspects and forces others to look closer

I’m almost 40 and I love that I don’t look or act my age… Some days I feel 60+ 🤣

I love that I’m finally showing who I am and making it obvious for others to see

And I love that doing this is a giant “fuck you” snub at the forced social rules of etiquette that do more harm than good

Summer passes and so goes the nudity

The heatwave that has passed, more than once, through France and Europe……. Has weakened my interest in posting

Still searching for a muse to inspire me but nothing thus far

These are a few photos from my favorite place in the garden… My hammocks

Pimping my gamer/YouTuber son #sfw #GetYourHeadOutOfTheGutter

If you enjoy game play videos and crazy, loud humor, random voices and accents with random sexual jokes and swearing…

Kailen has been creating content…

He has the personality to be a professional YouTuber but needs more subscribers and views

He’s currently editing game play where he played the game with the controller backwards…

Because why the fuck not 🤣🤣

He is also looking for more fun people to game with who want to be in his content or game with others who already have a channel

I know it’s a mother’s job to be proud of their kid (he’s almost 22) but it’s way more than that

He really is obnoxiously funny… I say that because his humor can go from dad humor (sometimes worth a groan but still funny) all the way up to madness you’d expect on Saturday night live, Mrs Brown’s boys and game grumps

He really is a riot and it’s obnoxious because he just needs more networking

So that’s the job this mom is taking

Please check him out
Pass him on
Share some gaming time

There
I have pimped him out 🤣🤣

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCjv0y1OpRUVg1SQmvObUv9Q