better late in the day than never #TittyTuesday


long day

far too much laundry

i desperately need a machine at home

too much bs using the machines around the house

most locations are very small with not enough for people that seem to swarm in when i need the machines

or the few locations i know of that are bigger

well they have crap parking or not the “best” areas or far from home

but got laundry done

so here was what i wore while doing laundry

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not allowed out of my room by order of the kitten


i swear my life is odd and i couldnt make up half the shit that comes out of my mouth

the kitten has taken a sweater and is using it as a soft spot to sleep outside my door

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seems paprika is on guard duty as she sleeps with one eye open

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and when escape is possible

i find google guarding my 8 year old son

though it seems the floor is much too dangerous and my son’s feet are not allowed to touch the ground

possible boogieman siting though it is day light hours but what do i know

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obviously he is an undercover agent of some sort as i found him poking his nose into my business earlier

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i tell ya.. cats these days

crazy cats

seems that #ManicMonday is screaming to be #TittyTuesday


really now

who has time for words when boobs could be shown instead

*evil grin*

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too emo to post on #SinfulSunday :(


just been too emotional

too depressed

not sad, i stop myself from feeling that as much as possible

mostly feeling overwhelmed

no safe zone

in need of aftercare without any of the bdsm pleasure

feeling very much like the universe is using me for hardcore sm challenge

i want the fun, the pleasure, the normal struggles in life

just too overwhelmed

got to spend time with TinMan yesterday

that helped and that hurt

so easy to slip into the past and hate my ex husband for stealing my life

each day i have to fight the depression that says i should be in a partnership

that my bed shouldnt be half empty

that my house shouldnt be so caotic

that my life shouldnt be so stressed

that my eldest shouldnt yell at me, saying he isnt my boyfriend… there by meaning he feels he shouldnt have so many responsibilities

i want less stress and more cooperation

more fun, less mental abuse

my son is now 18

i have been treating him like an adult for the last year

trying to train him what the real world is like

he sees me as a petty tyrant

is incapable of helping

i am his maid, his slave… cinderella with no dress, no ball, no prince charming and no fairy godmother

but i am the problem (in his eyes)

people tell me i need a vacation

that wont help

i need control over my life

but i cant seem to get that

every time i come close something comes along and cuts me down

i’m tired of being strong

i’m tired of getting abuse when trying to do my job as a mom

i’m tired of the fighting

i’m tired of being alone… as in having a wealth of friends i never to rarely see, who live their lives without me

i am tired of reminding myself not to be jealous of the happiness of others

i’m tired of people saying i need a shrink when what i NEED is a job, steady income, improved health, less stress, more friends nearby, normalcy and better language skills to cope with living in a different country

tired of not being me

i want to laugh, go to parties, host parties, go camping, go to the movies, go out for drinks, go to music events

i want a garden with beautiful plants and to have people over for a bbq

so tired of having no interest in anything because i cant afford to spend energy on wishing for what i want and knowing i wont have it

i dont want to be strong any more

i want someone to help take the weight of the world off my shoulders because i keep trying to put it down, the stuff i shouldnt be carrying but it seems magnetized and flies right back at me

feeling so lost

ok i have cried

i have vented my soul

time to go back and be strong

be what everyone seems to think i am

so here

a pic for you to oo and ah over

forgetting my words and emo crap

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cant go wrong with toes, sole, nipple and rounded nipples

hope your monday is less emotionally charged than mine

he made me see the magic


i went to a 14th of july event

it is kind of like the 4th of july for the french

at least as far as day off, everything closed and parties

not to forget fireworks or in this case fire play

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not sure if any of it counts as fire poi

and it was different than juggling

but either way i saw beauty and captured the magic in my pictures

i love the partial face in this image

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and the ninja feeling here, as well as the 2 leaves from the tree

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a larger capture of the above image

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Charlie In The Pool

Sometimes there are boobs.

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Karen Woodall

Supporting children and their families affected by Parental Alienation

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