Note: for those of you that know and for those of you that don’t, at the time of writing I have been suffering for 21 years with an undiagnosed autoimmune disorder, I don’t know which one but I suffer health issues more easily than most will ever understand… and those that feel my pain… tonight I have no spoons
It is not fair
I went to bed
I read my book
I snuggled my son and then read his books
He almost fell asleep in my arms and then went to his bed to dream
I read some more
I fell asleep alone…
Then I woke up to this awful smell
It hurt to breathe
It hurt my head
My whole body hurt from this smell
He made something in the oven and there was some smoke in the oven
It leaked the smell into the house
It is everywhere
I turned the bathroom fan on and tried to sleep
I can’t sleep
I am awake
It is not fair
I am TIRED
I want to cry I am so tired
But I can’t sleep because of the smell
The pain the small causes me
It is not fair being so sensitive
He doesn’t understand
He never will
I hate this toxic world I live in
This is not living
Ok… I will stay awake and suffer
I am tired
Exhausted
Cold
I will stay awake and write
*cuddles*
thank you hun